Never knew I could feel like this Like I've never seen the sky before I want to vanish inside your kiss Seasons may change, winter to spring But I Love You, until the end of time -"Come What May," Moulin Rouge Near the end of my Caribou summer, I met Doug when we both went to see Zach in a play. In the theater bathroom, he made fun of the toe rings I was wearing with my Birkenstocks, and I told him to fuck off. Turned on by my attitude, he pursued me that evening. We had drinks with Zach after the show; I was drinking expensive fruity cocktails out of martini glasses, and Doug made sure I always had a full one. He came home with me, where he took care of me as I puked in the bathroom and passed out in the bed. I loaned him a shirt in the morning, and never returned the Abercrombie & Fitch “DUMP HER” t-shirt he had been wearing. After morning sex and brunch with his friends at Nookie’s on Halsted, Doug had to fly out. As he dropped me off at home, he said “come to New
Dear Friend Raising Your Child(ren) in the Christian Faith: A friend sent me an article today written by James Clementi, the older brother of Tyler Clementi. Tyler is the Rutgers student who committed suicide in September 2010 after his roommate used a webcam to spy on him. It moved me that poor James had to say things to his little brother that he would never get to say to him in person. I thought of a time in junior high when I thought I might commit suicide. I’d just started to grow uncomfortable with the feelings I was having for boys, I was unpopular and lonely at school, and I faced rejection when I asked girls to “go out” with me (really, where would we go anyway, the mall? “MOM, can you take me to the mall?” Well, yes, I guess that’s what the cool kids did do. Seems silly now.) I remember starting to pen suicide notes in Study Hall. I imagined leaving them unsigned and causing a stir, or I’d imagine actually killing myself at home, and I’d imagine how bad the kids wh
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